And all this time
Bitter thoughts in her head
Crying in the dark...
Death is looking so good, but
Everybody loves her
Forgotten as she feels.
Gotta keep trying
Hide the tears. Hide the bruises. But
Inside she's broken in pieces,
Just like the vase she threw at his head.
Keep pretending for the world
Let them think you're happy, and
Maybe this time you won't have to lie:
"No, really. I'm fine."
Only when shes alone can she drop the mask
Pouring black liquid misery onto her pillow.
Quietly remembering and
Really wanting to forget,
Stuck in the past and unable to move on.
Thoughts of insecurity swirl through her mind:
Unwanted, stupid, unattractive, forgettable.
Violently chewing on her thumb, needing pain, but too
Weak to put a blade to her skin; an
"X" to mark the spot. In blood.
You never wanted to be happy anyways, right? Just
Zone out, fall asleep, find a world where nothing matters.